so yesterday morning i woke up and felt strange. something was not right with my body, and I knew right away. i had some chest pains and my arm was numb, talk about being scared. I didn’t have any choice but to go to the emergency room. After several tests (I had an EKG!! and chest xrays and had all kinds of wires hooked up to me!!) all is good with my heart, thank god. It was probably just acid reflux! LOL who goes to the ER with acid reflux? ME! But seriously, there was no way I was gonna screw around with my heart. ya know? anyways, everything is good with my heart, but unfortunately, it looks like I have type 2 diabetes. I’ll have to see my dr for the official diagnosis, but the ER doc was pretty sure considering how how high my blood sugar level was (342!!! and i hadn’t eaten anything for like 12 hours! wow). i hate that i have diabetes and i wish i had taken better care of myself and i’m determined to not let this take over my body. Diet and exercise is so important now. so very important. As soon as I know more, I’ll fill you guys in.

we had to take the kids to the er with us because i don’t have anyone to watch them. we left the house around 4:30 am. and my husband had to leave me and take the kids home to get ready for school. he said when they got to the truck at the hospital that ernie turned to sophia and asked, “sophia, do you think mommy is going to be ok?” we both got teary eyed when he told me the story. my poor ernie. i hate that he had to see all that. I hate that they had to be at school all day not knowing if i was ok. I tried to get my husband to get them outta school after we got back home, but he said no. they were ok though. I also told them that I couldn’t have any sugar like for example, CANDY! so that meant they couldn’t either. you shoulda seen their faces! LOL i’m so mean. we came to a compromise: they could have some candy occasionally just not in front of me!!! LOL i made sure to explain to them that i was OK and that we wouldn’t be going back to the hospital any time soon. (hopefully!)

this is Kermie. He’s one of the doggies we found last week in our yard. He’s a handful!! it’s like having a toddler in the house with this guy around. His mama is also here with us and i swear, she comes to me to hide from kermie. He’s so exhausting and when she’s had enough of him, she comes straight to me and will bury herself between me and the couch! lol it’s hilarious. I know how she feels. I can’t even use the restroom without a kid barging in most days! poor mama! Kermie’s a cutie though. sunday morning he was outside and he crawled under the fence to the neighbors yard and they have a pitbull. well, all we heard was kermie crying and yelling so we all ran out there to see what was going on and we thought he was being attacked by the pitbull. she didn’t bite him, she was just playing really rough with him and kermie is a cry baby. but still we were so scared. i was so scared, i almost passed out. DRAMA! i’ve been kissing kermie’s ass ever since, i hope he forgives me for that, it was my fault for putting them outside! =/

and it’s birchbox time!! yay!! did anyone else get laundry detergent in their box? lol birchbox makes me laugh, but I still won’t give it up. I love that lipbalm and that cuticle stuff is pretty good too!

and that’s a lil part of my life. so glamorous, right? i know you’re jelly. =P